Wild Animals
A Pain-ful Lesson
Little Fighter
Fang & Claw Records
http://cloudchaser.esmartweb.com/wildanim.htm

Written by and copyright of Louve (August 2000).  About the pain of living with Reflex
Sympathetic Dystrophy.  Also displayed with other R.S.D. poetry/info at
http://members.fortunecity.com/louve/painpoetrypage.html


A PAIN-FUL LESSON
My mind searches intensly, there must be a reason,
 How is it that my life was created to know such misery ?
I pray for an end, but it remains with the change of each season.
 My spirit is trapped inside my own "hell here on Earth".

Each new day, my heart fills with hope, that someday soon,
 This nightmare will be but a distant memory.
But each night, it remains, through each phase of the moon.
 And with it, my hope dwindles, as my fight tires out.

They tell me to "hang in there", "you're stronger than this",
 "this beast within you is no match for your spirit."
I smile kindly, as I dream of such a moment of bliss,
 Their hearts mean well, this I know, but my mind knows better.

I do my best to conceal my worries, to hide the falling tears,
 that "brave" face I display, is nothing more than a mask.
But when alone, and the mask is removed, before me lay my fears.
 Those feelings I keep to myself, the sadness which dwindles my spirit.

Life is a precious gift, this I do understand.
 Yet I find that I question this "gift" of a life,
When even the touch of a lover's hand,
 Singes my shoulder, and burns my cheek.

When pain is not present, we fail to be thankful,
 That this "beast" has not touched our lives.
But this I plead of you - to be so very grateful,
 For each moment of time filled with pleasure- without pain to be felt